The People you meet in your Lifetime.

To be blunt- people are in our lives for a reason. Not one person is more important than the other and one is not invalid due to minor encounters. We all gain something from someone we meet.

This blog was inspired by a girl that has touched my life in many ways I could never think possible. We unfortunately are not as close as we used to be, if you could even say we are close at all anymore. But, she showed me there is more to life than being and letting others take from you everything you thought you had to offer. I am stronger now because of knowing her and I am saddened by the events that tore us apart because of the power that we had together. We scared people because our bond was so strong, but I now know it is because of a higher calling that we had to travel our separate ways. I can't explain why or how it all happened but there was a fork in our road and we each had to take a different path. Who knows, maybe they are meant to cross back over each other one day, but until then I will take what I have learned and travel forward.

There is another reason why this blog is important to me. A boy, better yet, a gentleman. The first guy that I have meet that I actually believed when he told me he has more to offer than fitting the pompous ass hole who thinks he's the "shiznit" role! (my cool word for 'all that and a bag of potato chips). I don't know what it is. Maybe the way he said it with such passion and heart that the only thing I could do was believe him, but it has opened my eyes to my cold heart and bitterness that I have held inside for a long time now. I thank God that this guy is in my life now. He is a good friend and I can see me learning a lot more of what I should want and think I want in my soul mate. Although this guy is almost my perfect guy, I honestly believe we are ment to just be friends and to allow me to learn from him as he heals from his recent heartbreak.

I have felt a huge weight lifted in my life and all I can think to do is cry because of how much hate I had stored up. I am lonely and it is my fault. I push guys away and I hurt those that I think will hurt me before they even have a chance to. It is not a healthy way to live for someone who says she wants to fall in love. I have not opened my heart up to love; I have only cut out every ounce there might have been to make sure I dont get hurt. I have met many people who could have been great but I turn them away. They were put in my life for a reason and I just pushed them away like a scared little girl.

I do have an amazing BFFITWWW though. I have told her so much that past few weeks that I have held inside that I am surpirsed she too hasn't exploded from it all. But she is the most understanding lady I know and does not judge me because of my choices. I am glad that I have her in my life to lean on and release a hundred ton of secrets and emotions on her. She has been blessed with an amazing boyfriend and I am so happy for her. They are an example that I want to model in any relationship that I might have. Love is a powerful tool in life and they have it hook line and sinker.

I want you now to think of someone in your life that has made a positive difference. Do you still talk to them? Did you ever tell them how great they are in your game of life? ............................ .....................................................................................................................Tell them again.

Age vs Experience

Which is more important: age or experience? Is it a number or resume? Is it mind or matter?

At my young age of 20 (almost 21) I have a developing knowledge of the effects that your age has on the way people react to you. Based on what we can and cannot do, we are automatically put into a category based on our age. It happens to everyone and everyone does it, whether they think they do or not. Its a human characteristic that we cannot avoid... or is it? Can we accept everyone equally and remove age from the picture? No. It cannot be done. There might be circumstances that allow for age not to matter but in order to grow as a human, age must be taken into play, just like any other animal, because that is what we are. Age is a number of cycles each of us have achieved. We go day by day growing just a little more. We might not see it or feel it but we are. As Ralph Waldo Emerson said "The years teach much which the days never knew." I have often heard people say, "those were the days" and they were, the days were great but they weren't much until you stop and realize how powerful one more day in a life time is. I am close 21 years of age and it scares me to think that I have lived for almost 7,665 days and still have no idea who I really am.

Time is not just about the hours in a day or the weeks in a month. It is about how you spend that time. Time not used is time well wasted. Go out and make something of your life. Be young and free. You only age as fast as you let yourself. There is a whole world to see. so see it.