The People you meet in your Lifetime.

To be blunt- people are in our lives for a reason. Not one person is more important than the other and one is not invalid due to minor encounters. We all gain something from someone we meet.

This blog was inspired by a girl that has touched my life in many ways I could never think possible. We unfortunately are not as close as we used to be, if you could even say we are close at all anymore. But, she showed me there is more to life than being and letting others take from you everything you thought you had to offer. I am stronger now because of knowing her and I am saddened by the events that tore us apart because of the power that we had together. We scared people because our bond was so strong, but I now know it is because of a higher calling that we had to travel our separate ways. I can't explain why or how it all happened but there was a fork in our road and we each had to take a different path. Who knows, maybe they are meant to cross back over each other one day, but until then I will take what I have learned and travel forward.

There is another reason why this blog is important to me. A boy, better yet, a gentleman. The first guy that I have meet that I actually believed when he told me he has more to offer than fitting the pompous ass hole who thinks he's the "shiznit" role! (my cool word for 'all that and a bag of potato chips). I don't know what it is. Maybe the way he said it with such passion and heart that the only thing I could do was believe him, but it has opened my eyes to my cold heart and bitterness that I have held inside for a long time now. I thank God that this guy is in my life now. He is a good friend and I can see me learning a lot more of what I should want and think I want in my soul mate. Although this guy is almost my perfect guy, I honestly believe we are ment to just be friends and to allow me to learn from him as he heals from his recent heartbreak.

I have felt a huge weight lifted in my life and all I can think to do is cry because of how much hate I had stored up. I am lonely and it is my fault. I push guys away and I hurt those that I think will hurt me before they even have a chance to. It is not a healthy way to live for someone who says she wants to fall in love. I have not opened my heart up to love; I have only cut out every ounce there might have been to make sure I dont get hurt. I have met many people who could have been great but I turn them away. They were put in my life for a reason and I just pushed them away like a scared little girl.

I do have an amazing BFFITWWW though. I have told her so much that past few weeks that I have held inside that I am surpirsed she too hasn't exploded from it all. But she is the most understanding lady I know and does not judge me because of my choices. I am glad that I have her in my life to lean on and release a hundred ton of secrets and emotions on her. She has been blessed with an amazing boyfriend and I am so happy for her. They are an example that I want to model in any relationship that I might have. Love is a powerful tool in life and they have it hook line and sinker.

I want you now to think of someone in your life that has made a positive difference. Do you still talk to them? Did you ever tell them how great they are in your game of life? ............................ .....................................................................................................................Tell them again.