Intro...

This is my blog on the realities of life through my eyes. I have always need some place to put my ideas and tons of journals just never seem like enough, so I figured I would share my thoughts with others and hopefuly get feed back. Just as a forewarning, I am a horrible speller and I apologize ahead of time. I have seen many different kinds of people in my lifetime. Some of which I have grown to charish in my life and others who are complete idiots. Stupid people piss me off. A lot of people put me in the "stupid people" category only because they do not take the time to get to know me. If you do not have time for someone then you are not worth their time. I have seen so many people waste time on others, when they don't really care in the first place. That is a waste of a life and opportunity. I can honestly say that I have spent time on others, when, looking back on it, they were a waste of a memory and time. I still do it every once in a while to give some hope back to life, but I soon snap back into reality and know it is time to move on. If something is "ment to be, then it will happen on its own. You can throw yourself at someone's feet and wish for them to pick you up and take you in their arms, but if you have to throw yourself at them, then its not worth the begging in the first place. All that ends up happening is you get burned and they get away with it, feeling nothing of your pain. I used to be the girl doing everything I could to get a guy to notice me, only to end up getting hurt. As I think about it now, I realize how pathetic I looked doing that. I tried to be someone for them rather than having them love me for who I really am. But until you are at the very end of your life, you will still not know who you truly are. There are life lessons to be learned everyday that changes people in little ways. Those who say they are completly sure of themselves are the biggest liars out there. They are hiding from truths and making an excuse to ignore the battles. You should fight one battle everyday. Whether if it is with yourself or overcoming a roadblock, it will strengthen you as a person.
Friends are the most important people in your life. I have 2 friends that I would give my life for, if it means they live one more day of happiness. I know it might sound cheesey but it is the truth. One of them I have known since dippers and the is someone I have grown close to in the past few months. It is crazy to say that I would give my life for someone I havent even known for a year, but she saved my life in more than one way. There are things about her that reminded me of an old version of myself that I hated to be. I see her struggle over very similar obsticals that I had to once face at a younger age. But in my case no one did anything. No one noticed what I was going through. Years later, I found out my mom saw something was wrong, but still did nothing about it. I just dont want anyone to have to go through what i did, alone. I have had many friends come and go, but the ones that will stick around through thick and thin, all the bull shit and drama, the selfishness and unwanted amounts of attention, those are the friends you keep around. No one is perfect, but the friends who know how messed up the two of you are together, are the keepers.

well I must be going. Dont ever forget to smile!