Friday, June 12, 2009

regrets and risks...

Life is full of risks and regrets. There is nothing any of us can do about it either. We have to take risks to get anywhere and life and we regret many choices we make along the way. Many good opportunities arise in life but most people miss out on them because they are too afraid to take the risk. There is too much of a chance to fail when taking risks. You can just off a cliff and hope your parachute works, but there is always that 1% chance that yours is the one that doesnt open, so why put yourself in any danger. Just walk away and all is fine, right? That is a question I cannot answer but regret can. Will you look back 10 years from now and think, 'I should have jumped'? how much could a simple leap change your life? Every leap changes your life path. each turn in the road will lead you to something different based on each choice made.

Have you ever risked you life for someone else's?

What risk did you take today? Do you regret it?

I ask myself these questions often. I used to live in a box. I didn't want to put myself out on the line and end up getting hurt. I still got hurt anyways. The first risk I took, broke my heart. It was a boy, I jumped for him and right before I thought I was going to land, he cut my strings and left me to fall face down. I had no idea I could hurt like that. I still feel the pain after years have past. I stopped taking risks after that. Especially, not jumping because of a boy. I was broken and torn. I lived everyday pulling myself back from a disaster. I had no one there and I regret not reaching. But at that point my "friends" still didn't care how much I hurt inside. As I learn from my very first jump, I regret blaming him for all my pain. I should have seen it coming. There were so many signs that flashed at me, telling me I was going to get hurt. I can see those signs now. I leap off a short cliff everyonce in a while to see what new tricks are out there. sometimes, you get pushed off the cliff with nothing to hold you back. But mid-fall, everyonce in awhile, someone is there to fall with you. It tends to make the crash a little more enjoyable. You can look up together and laugh at those who push you over the edge.

Life has a funny way of hidding the beauty of strength and risk. At the fork in the road, you can go right or left. To the right, there is a path covered with shrubs and rocks. To the left, there is a clear path with a smooth terrain. Most people would take the left path. Would you agree? What if you were told, at the end of the path on the right there was a pot of gold and your true love. And, at the of the left path, there is still a smooth path, flat lands ending in an average field. which path would you take then? Would you brave the dark woods and rocks slopes, or would you play it safe and follow an easy path? After finding out what the end prize is, it might be obvious what a lot of people would choose. So, why do we not take the risk in the first place. Do we always have to have to answer inorder to jump?

We see movies of superheroes fighting villans. There are movies a young woman trying to prove herslef in society. Men, defeating a whole army. Why are we not like that in real life? We too can be our own heroes, we just dont have the guts to risk it. everyone has dreams and asperations, but only a few are actually achieved. Clearly, winning the lotto is not something that happens often, but for the sake of this topic, it is not something one can control themselves. I am talking about peoples dreams to become something or someone. There are means to reach your goals and sometimes you just have to fight for them.

Today, I was talking to one of my friends who is trying to figure out what she wants to be. At first it was a teacher. recently, she has been talking about becoming a nurse. When we were talkign about it at work today, another worker and myself were telling her how competative each program is. After some disscusion, she seemed to pull herself away from those. I sucks to see people bring themselves down when they know they have to reach a requirement. It is a readable goal, but they do not have mental will to leap and try to land. She has been pushed off the cliff many times now. It just hurts to see how much she has fallen alone. I am trying to help her build up the strength to climb back up the mountain and let her jump on her own and show her, it is possible to land on your own two feet.

Risks and regrets happen everyday. You risk your life getting in a car or walk across the street. They are so habitual that you dont even realize the risk. But there is that one person that gets hit or runs off the side of the road, that changes someone else's life now. So why do we take those risks, but not the others. A car can kill you. Love can hurt but it won't end your life. Maybe thats the answer. You can't die from love. If it breaks us, we still have to go on. We are forced to fight through the pain. Same with rejection. We have to live with the feeling of not being wanted. It hurts so bad sometimes that you just want to die but you cant. you have to live with it everyday, hoping it will just go away. Hopeing you never have to feel that way agian. You have great memories but it makes you sick to think about how good it felt. Nothing is ever the same after being push. It a deathly pain that never goes away. Its life.

Never give up though. Tomorrow you could me the person who is supposed to make everything better. Tomorrow is a new day that brings new life. It is one more day past the pain. One less day with out the one who hurt you and one more day with the ones you love. Life is unpredicatable so dont think you ever have anything completely figured out, because once you figure it out the answers will change. only time can tell you what lies at the end of the path. It is your choice; The path to the right or the one to the left. Just remeber, nothing is ever the way it seems.

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